Digger
A horner is not born. Well, maybe in your case.
You work hard. You study, and learn from your mistakes. You seek information wherever you can find it,more hard work and maybe you start ro see results in your work.
I think the trick is to be persistant, and not to become discouraged when things don't go right. Also to realise how good others are and accept constructive criticism and it's intent. Keep it up.
Skillman