J.D. I can appreciate cheap, for I am cheap. But if I know that the right tool is $100, I will buy it, or save for it until I can get it.For the right tool is the cheapest tool in the long run. It will save you time, and do a better job. You will get more enjoyment from the work, with less frustration.
I can also appreciate spending time, hour after hour, year after year, trying to learn something with poor and inconsistent results. This comes partially from an unwillingness to spend money on the right tools, and from not willing to spend the time how to learn how to do things right. It also comes from being an independent mined know-it-all kind of guy.
Trying to tough it out is not going to do anything but frustrate you in the end. You can also learn the wrong way to do things, which are harder to un-learn than if you started from a fresh, innocent point of view.
Natural talent is a great thing to have, but it has to be nurtured, given time to develop, exercised, put to work in order to bring it out to its fullest potential. Determination and hard work are needed to bring this talent out of hiding. We don't just wake up one day and find, incredibly, that we have this font of talent. It takes years of work and desire, and emulation, copying the masters, reading and learning everything one can about your passion. I find I must be passionate about something in order to be able to do it. Part of kindling the flame is to study the original works, go to museums, learning techniques and materials involved, etc.
If this sounds daunting, you must realize that all of this is fun. If it's not, don't do it.
$#@*, I must have worn my philosopher underwear today.