Nordnecker...it's the journey that's the thing - not the destination. I can identify with you 100%.
Years ago, I took it upon myself to make a big broad sword. It was a month's work of grinding and polishing. But I finished it and it was a beauty! To better understand the sword's potential, I cut the head off a big bear in my carport, and was amazed at the ease of it. Apart from admiring the thing, it never got any more use. And that's just fine!